I wanted to end my day today with gratitude and appreciation for everyone who has been supportive, positive, and kind while I go through this fight. From people I have known and loved my entire life to people I have never even spoken too the outreach and love has been tremendously overwhelming in the most amazing way.
For a large part of the last 10 years I have not felt worthy of love from anyone, after years of addiction and pain that is just what happens. Even after you fight that demon, and slay it, the realization of what you did and how much you disappointed the people that love you doesn’t just go away when the drugs do. It lingers for a very long time.
I have never felt so loved and cared about in my life as I do now and it’s because all of you. I love and appreciate everyone in my life, regardless of where that is. I don’t want to have cancer but, as I have said before I think this was my path, to beat this, to challenge the system, and to help others and you are all helping me fulfill that purpose. Without your encouragement, kind words, and financial help I don’t know if I could do this alone.
Thank you, I love you, and by all means.
#fuckcancer
Read this on Substack where it first appeared — if you’re into that sort of thing.
